Language as a Virus

Virus = ?
Vaccine = ?
Mutation = ?

VIRUS
Part 1.

Language is the means we have defined for communication. It helps to share and understand the same meaning. But due to our exprience, we can end up with individual experiences in a particular language, meaning can be altered, and as soon as that language completely changes what it means to us, we can be happy and unhappy. (The unhappiness we speak here is not just a break in communication, but a tragedy that comes from the loneliness that comes from not feeling what others feel, or from the complex loneliness that comes from not feeling what others feel.)

As a person with hypersensitivity, I began to organize my writings to deal with the stimulus that came to me. This writing, which began to find the cause, made me feel how complex emotions I had to live with every moment. But knowing the core of the problem never helped me to feel better or showing the way for solution. Also these reasons can not give more statement to my work (even gives more confusion about the reason why I want to visualize my thought and feelings.) as I am already of myself wanting to be understood by people.

In the meantime, I came across the concept of a (Language as a Virus)
Somebody didn't make me understand this concept, and this statement didn't help me to get rid of my tiredness from confusion. Weirdly I feel attached with this concept and felt comfort. I think it is due to, I sense the unknown hope by defining the faded picture of my thoughts, and that I could confirm that other people were thinking the same way. (I have defined the language stimuli that people pour out for me in my own sense and want to share those organized languages. And the languages that I've organized by my own standards, narrow the gaps that have occurred in the process of time and transformation, and through the process of sharing, I help people to understand me and find stability.) So, I started to classify this comfort and what it can be for me. First of all, I start by constructing basic structure of the concept and added or excluding the concept to make to me understand more about it and explore what I can be.

Virus : Language
Vaccines, Immunizations: Understanding, Accepting, Sharing, Conversation=Honesty
Mutation = ?

Part 2.


Manic topic : Am I the one who is injected by the virus or am I the Virus it self who wants to spread the virus.

cow topics to consider to combine vaccines, immunizations, and mutations.

1. The significance of my work depends on whether I am virus or just host of virus.
2. The purpose of spreading my virus based on the conclusion of 1.

The moment I define language as a virus. The first question is where I should position myself because viruses can make me a virus itself or a person who gets sick as an infected host.

If I cut to the point from the start, defining my self as a Patience creates Irony of the definition that I gave to the words(dictionary). And This Irony took over the power of my work that can stand itself.

Core of my work is writing. As a first step of visualization process, text became the base of everything, sound, visual and effects. Those text started as a surviving skill to filter and process what is happening around me. As I can not handle even the tiny emotions that I have seen and felt which lead me to the side effect that my brain can not handle so that my body shuts down, I started writing as a surviving skill. Understanding doesn’t mean 100 percent accepting but it narrows down what I can take and threw away emotions which I can not handle in my body. In this point, I felt comfortable about concept of ‘Language as Virus’. Which means, I positioned myself in submissive position. I don’t need to blame myself, cause the reason that I am suffering to process what I feel is totally external. So the text that I wrote is the viruses that I figured out from the world and the process of visualizing is my Vaccination that I keep applying to me to survive.

So Version A structure became Version B

Virus : Language = Text that I wrote
Vaccines, Immunizations: Understanding, Accepting, Sharing, Conversation = honesty = Way to survive = Process to visualize the Virus.
Mutation = ?

Part 3.

But this comfortable feeling was a trap at the end. Defining myself as a submissive patience and take Vaccination that I created is just masturbating myself. Even I think ‘writing’ for my work is to help me to understand, but in the core of this process, I am just blaming only external excuses and pretending that I am doing good as I think it is easier to blame my self. Which is contradict attitude while and telling to people ‘Honesty’ is the most important thing that we need to deal with, not to be hurt and not to hurt others. Therefore, in that point my work lost the purpose at the end and give less changes to audience to be interpreted themselves. And even my starting point ‘text’ just became meditation process. In this point the most tragic part of calling my self a s host of virus is happening. while blaming outside of myself, me and my work can not confirm our own existence by ourselves. What if, there are no sources that I can feel and be clam? What if, I do not need to write anymore? What am I going to be and what else I can create? Am I still going be the same person? Is this even going to happen in my life? If I keep my attitude submissive while acknowledge the fact that I get sources of living external issues, those question will follow all the time which will keep lead me to harsher self deconstruction way to confirm the existence.

Ridiculously, this dilemma can be fixed by flipping my position to me became Virus itself from host of Virus. All the tragedy starts from the moment; we try to figure out the starting point. Is it necessary to have motivation of desire? Does virus have motivation to keep their life and melting inside our life and affecting us? Like my desire to survive from the flood of emotions, is it really needed to define the starting point for it while my life is threatening? Does it really worth to fight with virus which was no purpose to affect me? From the first step that I give up to find the core of my desire, I can accept who I am and keep my life.

Virus : Language = Text that I wrote = Recognition of who I am = Final outcome of Visualization.

Text Became the sources which helps me to understand who I am not to understand outside of my self. Also my work became the Virus itself which trying to effect people. Which means synchronizing my self to others to feel safe and less threats around me by different circumstances.

So that Version B-1 is
Virus : My self
Vaccines, Immunizations: Understanding, Accepting, Sharing, Conversation = honesty = Way to survive = Process to visualize the Virus.
Mutation = ?

Part 4.

There is one thing that we need to be clear. Idea ‘Virus = My Self’ is just a tool to provoke my motivation to deal with my art work, not that I want to be a language and help people to understand the core of language and romanticize about it. This idea is not newly coming out of sudden but more like theories which are based on basic human emotions still existing while only changes the form and words to fill it up. For example When we look up Nietzsche’s Beyond Good and Evil

Friedrich Nietzsche - Beyond Good and Evil
Part IX - Aphorism # 260 ~ # 261

To explain ‘why our society forcing humbleness to each other, he used the term of ‘Slave Morality and Noble Morality’

People with Slave Morality can not define themselves whether they are Good or Evil. So that to be ‘Good’ those people need to define others to be ‘ Evil ’. On the other hand, people with Noble Morality define themselves as implicit ‘Good’, people who do not need to used others to define themselves to be ‘Good’.

Therefor, Crashing is happening between people when these two types of human being coexisting in the world. For Slave morality people, existence of people who call themselves as ‘good’, keep disturbing to make themselves ‘good’ as even they trying to define noble morality people to be ‘evil’, it is not affecting them. Which means, slave morality people’s existence is constantly ignored. So that these people decided to force ‘humbleness’ towards each other. This is not due to make people to be free from hierarchy, but more to maintain their existence.
If I make a comparison between the concept ‘Language as a Virus’ and Nietzsche’s idea.

Slave Morality = Host of Virus
Nobel Morality = Virus, Myself
Humbleness = Honesty

The Statement that I decided to be the virus itself means I want to be a Nobel Morality human being who can define their existence themselves. Not like Slave Morality people, I am trying to avoid to get the sources of my writing and visualization process. Like the Virus do not have motivation for desire to survive, this is a promises for myself that I make my own desire to stand alone.

VACCINATION

One thing that can occur confusion here is,

Virus : My self
Vaccines, Immunizations: Understanding, Accepting, Sharing, Conversation = honesty = Way to survive = Process to visualize the Virus.
Mutation = ?

That I consider as a core of my work. How this can be related to Humbleness? From the moment that I decided to be Virus, my duty to search and develop vaccination is no longer existing. In this point what will be vaccination and honesty for me at this moment. Can I still force honesty towards people?

Part 5.

If we simply compare academic meaning of Humbleness and Honesty, these who words sound like they are at the opposite side towards each other. But, If we compare the moment that those two started to be forced, we can find common ground between them.

1.Starting point that Humbleness and honesty became manners in relationship.

Like I explained little bit above, Slave Morality people started to Force humbleness, to have less confusion of their existence and to justify their being. This is in the same line with the reason why I started to obsessed about honest and Put honesty as a front of my work. Not to be hurt, Not to have questions about who I am, why I am a person who have hyper sensitivity. Which means both of those words started to be fronted in society and myself to find personal comfort and keep personal existence.

2.In what point, I am insisting that honesty is just a same thing as ‘humbleness’ with different name/spelling.

( go back to intro )

In today’s society, after people do not need to fight for ideology with group, there are way less chances to have conflict with group. But while we keep trying to keep the structure that we built after big fights with huge group of people, we need to deal with smaller group of people and have more association with individuals. Also the trend of the market is also have changed. Now we have so many flat proms that we can make money which means people started to promote themselves as a product and need to learn how to marketing themselves. And I think those narrowed down social structure became the starting point that humbleness from the past changed to honesty in 2020.

Like I mentioned before, humbleness was forced to keep their existence but when you look up the psychological mechanism side of it, the core of process to keep themselves is ‘Excluding’. Get rid off sources which can occur confusion or threatening their own existence. Also as people need to deal with group of people, It was easier surround themselves with circumstances with the way they feel comfortable.

However, in 2020. ‘Excluding’ is still going on under the name of honesty. Even Honesty became the stronger and the easiest weapon for ‘ Excluding ’ that we can use. Honesty might look like we are respecting each other as we taking care of each other’s characteristic. But No body telling us about the risk of making ourselves as a open book. Under the reason of ‘ I want to know you who you are. ’ People can make faster decision whom to exclude and whom they want to put next to them. Also this process creates stronger power play in between people and irony of the meaning of Honesty. While people saying, we need to respect diversity, there is always a trend or hierarchy that people chose. Therefore people started to fake their own ‘ Honesty ’ to market themselves better and to feel less lonely. Also even people who are in the higher position that chosen by more people by their own honesty, they create admirers who want to be like them, which also ended up people to fake themselves about who they are.

In this point I think I can keep ‘Honesty’ as company that I need to bring with my Virus. But this is not standing with me as a Vaccination. Like I mentioned became a weapon to threat people as a Virus.

Virus : Language = myself
Weapon as Virus: Understanding, Accepting, Sharing, Conversation=Honesty
Mutation = ?

MUTATION

Part 6.

Weapon doesn’t stand for that I will attract people to be Honest. I am insisting that ‘Forcing Honesty’, ‘Making people to face their own’ will be my strategy to deliver my message.

Q. for self

What is the emotions that I want to trigger towards people threw forcing honesty? I’ve been always keep in mind that I want to make a work like paper cut on figure. Triggering some scare on people’s mind which is not painful but annoying while we keep our daily life. Reason is that, I want to smudge into people’s mind and triggering subtle constant flash back. To make this happen, I’ve been working hard to give ‘Uncomfortable’ feeling threw my work. Maybe this doesn’t sound really enough to deliver whole message that I want to spread. But I think as a human being even the emotions seems like extremely personal are same at the end. Those specific emotions just triggered by different experiences from individuals. So that I am trying to use this process in an opposite way that triggering ‘uncomfortableness’ towards people which can make people to put themselves in their own situations which can get closer to the thing that I experienced.

Also happily, this strategy can complete the missing characteristic of virus at the end, ‘Mutation’.

Mutation = Medium to deliver ‘Uncomfortableness’

I am injecting virus that I created to people, some people might create their own vaccination which can lead them for accepting process that I am asking for. Or keep gives mutation themselves with emotions and images that I gave while reflecting threw their life. Before that when I was positioning myself that I am patient. Mutation is the thing that I couldn’t deal with which I pushed a bit side. But after I became the virus itself, I can give the responsibilities of mutation to people whom that I am infecting. But this doesn’t mean that I will be irresponsible to driving audience to the conclusion where I want them to be arriving. I need to be to more precise and sensitive to trigger ‘uncomfortableness’ towards people.

If I sum up, my work itself is not a medium that use to I deliver for story telling, but rather something that triggers special emotions so that people can bring themselves to their own experiences. And makes them strange by throwing questions and doubts about the words that they have thought about in their lives.

I think this process of dealing with uncomfortableness is working as same mechanism as ‘Uncanny’

‘Uncanny’ is a term from Sigmund Freud.

It is true that there are some problems of Uncanny.
1.We can not qualify the proper characteristic and to understand the respective context in which the uncanny arises
But if we use this problem into strategy, I think it became easier to trap people.

The “Uncanny”1 (1919) - SIGMUND FREUD
On the Psychology of the Uncanny (1906)1 Ernst Jentsch

Freud said ‘ the uncanny is that class of the terrifying that leads back to something long known to us, once very familiar.

This is nice sum up of the summary of my goal that I am using in my video to deliver as virus. Layering the emotions and experiences towards the words that already existing and implanting the seed of myself to others which can mutate in the ones who became the host of my virus.

This could happen with some psychological aspect of how uncanny works with brain.

We need to go threw brief journey into how the familiar and unfamiliar of factors psychologically.

So when we encounter something new for the first time we typically enter into at phase of exploration surrounding that new thing or situation. But it is also quite common to take sometime to soak in all of the variables of the situation before that we can feel confident about working with it and what stands from. This is, that we come to naturally associate that which has been assimilated with a sense of confident mastery over that thing whereas that which is unfamiliar is usually treated like a mysterious foreign agent that might potentially disrupt the harmony of our world space.

So if I approach in psychological way about my visualizing process, I am trying to play and manipulate with atmosphere of uncertainty and unpredictability with people by using the tendency of people that I mention above. Make people to switch survivalist mode on within to make people to come across the boundaries ( of knowledge or feeling that have towards some words or situations ) that they clearly determined before. Then stresses is occurred when brain couldn’t figured out what the original boundary that they have defined before that. And this stress became the seed of my ‘uncomfortableness’ and starting point that virus effecting and mutate.

But this state of anxiety and unease feeling is occurring with something there has been familiar? As a same question, how am I using my work to layering new feeling and atmosphere towards people that they already defined themselves?
This is not happening in the way that terrifying something or forced while it can overwhelm someone. Also it shouldn’t be done in this way as rejecting may come first before the whole process is happening. It needs to go the path that something that was once taken to be familiar now starts taking on unfamiliar characteristics.

When the unfamiliar arises from within the familiar, it produces an internal conflict. Brain can’t factor into it’s original category. So that part of our brain still remains active, confirming to us that what we see is the familiar and yet the familiar is appearing or behaving in a way that negates the conditions that have made it familiar. So something to provoke the uncanny we have to experience something that our brain qualifies as familiar appearing or behaving in an unfamiliar way. And with no positive way to satisfy this dilemma, the brain automatically engages our right mechanisms which then sends us into a state of defensive posturing before defining that situation that we are facing is in familiar categories.

There for characteristic of virus, mutation starts from the uncomfortableness and due to the psychological aspect of how uncomfortableness changes the aspect of comfortableness that each human has, we can say it is working and effecting simultaneously each other. So that I can play with emotions and attitude that I am having towards with visualization process.

Mutation = strategy as Virus = Core of Work

CONCLUSION

Virus = My Self
Vaccine ≠ Honesty = Weapon as Virus
Mutation = strategy as Virus = Core of Work

Until now, the concept of ‘Language as a Virus’ helped to walk to the way that how to clear out the attitude should I have to deal with my self. Also it gave what is the main medium and method that I am using to deliver my message.

But it is also leaves the doubt about what I will achieve at the end.
Maintain my own existence by myself. Spreading Who I am towards people independently. However, isn’t it still have the hope that I want to be understood by people from the bottom of the heart while I am obsessively trying to stand alone? This questions might sound a bit weak and blur the point of statement that I wrote. But I believe in, unless I keep the independent attitude as virus, those questions will lead me to the another chapter of my work. About What is the biggest goal by spreading me around? Also regular self questions will help me to maintain this statement of work or help me to face the another side of myself which I might ignored to survive.

Uncanny – Sigmund Freud.

Uncanny 는 모든 사람들에게 똑같이 발현될수 없다.
Sth ( which we encountered ) that provoked in me is not working as the same way as to others.

Problem is qualify proffer Characteristic to understand respective perspective which uncanny arise.

The Uncanny is that class of the terrifying that leads back to sth long known to us, once very familiar.

How Familiar and Unfamiliar affects psychologically